Day 312-Weigh-in Day: 320.8lbs
Start Weight: 365.4
2 Weeks ago Weight: 309.8
Current Weight: 320.8
This Week’s Weight Loss: +11lbs
Total Weight Loss: 44.6lbs
Miles Biked this Week: 0
Total Miles Biked: 2041.4
Miles to Go: 5458.6
GEOGRAPHY (Where I'd be on the map having started at my house in Salt Lake City, Utah, heading for Tokyo):
Pacific Ocean (1330 miles off the west coast. I am heading for the Hawaiian Islands)
The Weeks Workout
Well, I must confess my sins…
I gave no thought to eating or working out over Christmas vacation. I've been a bad boy for 2 weeks. The results of all this are that I am now 11 pounds heavier! Gee…and I can feel it. I have no excuses. I’m not going to beat myself up. But it does show what can happen over the holidays. Oh well. I have noticed that I don’t feel the greatest, I feel weakness setting in, I don’t feel the energy and stamina I felt a few weeks back. There is a difference!
I did really well during the first three weeks of December when all the parties are occurring, but when I was actually home and out of my ritual, I fell off the wagon.
A few days ago, it really hit me that Fuji is this year…in 7 short months…and I have to get 110 pounds off of me and be able to ride uphill for 2 hours. I started wondering if I should postpone the ride another year to be sure that I am down to the weight I need to be, and don’t fail at my attempt. Fear started to set in. However, the whole reason I set out to do this challenge was to put my butt on the line so that there would be something to drive me. There’s no turning back.
I am realizing that when I am not focused on the big picture, I am not dealing with the reality of the situation. As I mentioned in a previous blog entry, I am not acting like I am in training. I am not feeling the urgency. Am I really cut out to do this? Am I going to prove to myself and everyone else---that I can’t do this?
I have thought many times over the past few weeks that I have lost my will-power and motivation. What is motivation? What does one do when they don’t feel like they’ve got anything to motivate them? It actually comes down to something so simple…a decision. I’ve had a decision to make many times, and I have NOT made decisions to lead me to Fuji.
It’s nice to have a cheering section, but not too many people are cheering me on. I feel that there are 4-5 people on the sidelines clapping for me. I think all of us when we set out to lose weight need a lot of support. But the cold reality of it is that it’s really between the mirror and me. I've got to give myself the pep talk every morning, and look at a picture of Mount Fuji and ask what I am doing "today" that will get me closer to that ride.
I’ve made a lot of promises recently that I’ve half kept. It’s now time to keep the promises. This week will be another opportunity to make promises. There will be meetings and work and cold temperatures and computers and freelance and parties…the list goes on and on why I don’t have a good chance at working out 5 times this week. So I will make a commitment:
I will go to the gym 5 times this week, and ride 100 miles on the bike! And I will climb back on the wagon and eat like a good boy this week!
Let’s see what the results will be next Saturday. Will a pound or two come off? I don’t know what my body's going to do…and I shouldn’t really care, because all I can do is what I can do.
So here I go into the new year!